|The Scout Trip to Moab|
He first helped out on a Scouts rafting trip in Moab. Next he was going to be doing a canyoneering trip in Zion's National Park with some friends. And shortly after that he and Neil would head to Californ-i-a. They back packed to different beaches, went to Mexico, visited museums, they hit up Yellow-Stone National Park, Yosemite National Park. They traveled to San Francisco where they stayed with Neil's brother and rested up for a week before Neil did a Tri-Atholon. They traveled the up the West Coast to Oregon, and Washington (stopping in Forks in honor of Neil's obsession with the Twilight Saga (this may or may not be true about Neil - but it is my blog and I will ad-lib where I see fit.))(This is true I have pictures to prove it) Eventually their plan was to stay in Canada and visit some National Parks up there before heading back to Utah for a week or two before heading out again to Havasupai, AZ.
|The Mist Trail at Yosemite National Park, CA|
Cam would either take me out or I'd invite him to come along with me and my friends. I was always so impressed that he was always wiling to hang out with me and my friends. I felt like it didn't matter to him if he was with a group of people he didn't know, as long as he got to spend time with me.
Cam's trip to California/West Coast/Canada was going to be his longest trip. He and Neil had planned to be gone almost two months so they would be able to do all that hey had planned. I was pretty bummed that he was going to be gone for that long and I wasn't entirely sure what would happen between us. So before he left I scheduled to take a day off from work so I could spend a full day with Cam (yes I am that awesome). We went to Denny's for breakfast, hiked to Stewart Falls, went swimming and later went to The Pit with his friends.
|Yosemite National Park, CA|
|I really like this picture, only because Cam has one NICE Backpack on... right? ha ha|
I heard from Cam almost daily after that. One day I didn't hear from him and then another day and another day went by without hearing anything from him. I remember I sort of freaked-out. Now when I say freaked-out, I don't mean that I text him and called him like a mad woman and left crazy messages. I mean I freaked-out as in I over thought not hearing from him and wrote my "freak-out" down in my journal. Turns out he just didn't have service where he was at... ha ha no big deal right? (uhh..worry wart)
I however was not the only one who freaked-out while Cam was away. One morning I woke up and had couple of text messages from Cam. I saw that the time of the messages had come in around 1 or 2 in the morning . The first asked if I was awake, the next one contained Cam's freak-out. He said he had heard something from someone and wanted to clear it up.
I don't remember how everything happened but I do remember that I called him later that morning to talk and clear everything up. To sum it all up: Cam had been on Facebook that night and had been talking to someone who had heard that I "pretty-much" had a boyfriend. I explained to him that I didn't have a boyfriend and I wasn't dating someone. He said that it was fine for me to date other people (remember he said this okay? you'll need to remember this for later) but that he hoped that if I started dating someone seriously that I would tell him.
Linda? not sure how you picked that name)
Cam and I continued to text nearly every day that we could while he was in California. I remember thinking one day that the whole distance thing was really starting to wear on me. I couldn't figure out how people had successful long-distance relationships because it was killing me and we weren't even exclusive.
|Case and point, here Cam and Neil are with hot-hippie-chicks|
|One day Cam sent me this picture and asked "what's missing..." I text back "ME!" pretty much the sweetest picture text ever!|
One day Cam text me and asked if I could do him a favor. He told me that he had ordered something online and it was suppose to be coming that day. He said his roommates were going to be gone all day and didn't want the package to just be sitting on the porch so he asked if I could run by his place after work and see if the package was there. He said for me to just call him when I got to his place and then he could give me the code to the house so I could place the package inside.
|Cam and Juan hiking in to Havisupi, AZ|
|Cam a hippie, manly man... he had this long of hair and beard when he surprised me! Love my outdoors-man!|
Cam got up and went under the stairs to the movie collection and I followed. We looked at the movie selection for a few minutes and then I thought to myself, oh screw it! I like him and I want to kiss him, so I cornered Cam and laid one on him. So my no kissing lasted a grand total of 15 minutes... if that! (Ha what can I say I'm irresistible, that being said I had been waiting all summer for that kiss)
Any time we talked about dating -whether it was each other or other people it would cause a rift in our open relationship. I felt like Cam was constantly reminding me that we were NOT exclusive which bothered me - I knew we weren't and it drove me nuts that he had to remind me. Sometimes it felt like a slap in the face, like "oh hey, I know you want this to go somewhere but just remember its not." His actions were often times hypocritical of his words- or that's how I felt at least. We spent the majority of our free time together, we would text daily, and we often acted like a couple - cuddling and kissing.
One day when I was on my lunch break with Cam, he reminded me again that we dating other people by mentioning he had been going out on dates. Three dates to be exact - one with one girl and two with a different girl. Needless to say, I was pretty annoyed with him when I left and headed back to work. I didn't give him a kiss or anything before I left. Later text me and complained about me not giving him a kiss before I left.
When dating, it seems everyone else is able to see everything so crystal clear. Ever thing is black and white, there is no gray and certainly no emotions to be considered because they aren't in the ones truly involved. I often would listen to my friends, co-workers or family give me different advice. Often times I welcomed it and tried to listen to what they said. One of them had recommended that I pull away from Cam, make him come to me. (who was this person? I've got some words for them)
After long boarding, my friends and I were hungry so we decided we would go grab some food at a Chinese place. I texted Cam and told him that I wasn't going to come over, that I was with my friends and was just going to stay and hang out with them. He did NOT like that. He was upset so when we got to the restaurant my friends went inside and I called him to make sure he wasn't too mad.
Cam and I met up later and had the LONGEST talk about things. By the end of it I still wasn't sure what I wanted. I told him I needed a little bit of time to think.
Cam expressed that he was completely willing to do that. At first, he really did not know how to act around me. He made sure to keep his distance, he wouldn't cuddle with me unless I told him it was okay.